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“A Psalm 143:7 Kinda Feeling” by A. Miller

Have you ever had a time in your life where you looked around and said, “Ok God, help me outta this funk or else I swear I’m gonna go bonkers!” Well, sitting in my dark living room at 3am, I find myself saying something along those lines; praying God will show me the purpose for all the trials and straight up funk going on all around me in this time of seasons greeting and holiday joy…

Psalm 143:7 says, “Come quickly, Lord, and answer me, for my depression deepens. Don’t turn away from me, or I will die.”

This verse couldn’t put it any better! Lord, I need an answer. I know I have no business asking for one, but I need it just the same.

With everything I’ve been through in my life here on earth, (the death of my father, my wreck of a marriage, my repentance and rocky road to recovering my wreck of a marriage, and a few life changing surgeries… Not to mention being a mom to three awesome and high spirited kids,) and all of it has given me my own personal perspective and relationship with my Lord.

I see God as a Daddy, I always have. It’s how I tend to interpret His Word and how I respond best to Him. So, every once in a while I find myself sitting in His lap, on His throne; the worlds problems put on hold, while He listens to my tearful complaining. The entire time He’s listening so intently, understanding in His eyes, gently rocking me in His arms.

He may or may not ever tell me His reasons for the trials and the pain, but I know He’ll always love me enough to stop the world just to hold me when I need Him to.

Thank you Lord, for loving me in a way that You know is perfect for me.

XOXO,
A.